Thursday, February 19, 2009

February 19th

Today is February 19th. It is the four year anniversary of the loss of our sweet baby, Tessa. I am over the grieving process. I can list MANY blessings that have come to us directly because of this loss. But on February 19th, I cry. I miss her. I feel like one of my children is missing. I fully believe we will see her and be with her again, so I do not feel a hopeless, dark kind of sadness. I feel a sadness of missing someone I really love. I want to hug my children here a little tighter for a little longer.
Today is not a day to "get stuff done" as so many days around here are. I gave the kids a free day- no school, no practicing. We are picking Abe up for lunch and going to the cemetery where we will probably all cry again. Then we'll come home and watch the Johnny Tremain movie (we just read the book). I'm going to be gentle to myself and "my people".
Today is a day to remember what happened four years ago. I am grateful to our family and friends who supported us and were, and are, so kind to us.

7 comments:

Leslie Behunin said...

Oh Betsy-thank you for sharing this. You're such an example of strength and faith. I'll be thinking of you guys today as I hold my little men a little closer. Thank you!

Abe Fox said...

Tessa and Mom were looking down on us today at the cemetery......and smiling. We are an Eternal Family!!

And thanks to God for giving us such a beautiful February day. The sun was out - the air was clean and clear. Exactly like that very sad day four years ago.

I love you Betsy and ALL of "our people"!!

henryteachers said...

What a special day you are having in memory of Tessa! That was just beautiful Betsy. Thank you for sharing it with all of us.

Amy Fox said...

Betsy, you and Abe have been through so much together as a family. You are such strong and wonderful people. I love your blog and how you express yourself and share your lives with us, from the happy moments to these heartfelt moments. We're all thinking of Tessa today with you!

Katie Fox said...

I love feeling about of your life even though we are so far away. You guys are a wonderful example of "Faith" through trials and I think of you often. Thanks for sharing.

Barbara said...

Betsy and Abe: I thought about all of you yesterday. You are a strong example to me even though I do not express it. Thank you for being you and for including all of us in on your special time in memory of Tessa. We love you!

JanEllenSanders said...

There are many times I have thought of you guys in the past four years...more so in the past year and half. What a blessing it has been to have our baby girls and what a tremendous reunion it will be when our baby girls are in our arms again! Love to your family Betsy!