Today is February 19th. It is the four year anniversary of the loss of our sweet baby, Tessa. I am over the grieving process. I can list MANY blessings that have come to us directly because of this loss. But on February 19th, I cry. I miss her. I feel like one of my children is missing. I fully believe we will see her and be with her again, so I do not feel a hopeless, dark kind of sadness. I feel a sadness of missing someone I really love. I want to hug my children here a little tighter for a little longer.
Today is not a day to "get stuff done" as so many days around here are. I gave the kids a free day- no school, no practicing. We are picking Abe up for lunch and going to the cemetery where we will probably all cry again. Then we'll come home and watch the Johnny Tremain movie (we just read the book). I'm going to be gentle to myself and "my people".
Today is a day to remember what happened four years ago. I am grateful to our family and friends who supported us and were, and are, so kind to us.